Inside the Circle

Inside the circle, they wove their dreams and constructed worlds out of their ephemeral desire. They paced and exclaimed the meaning of the universe while snacking on dark chocolate and twizzlers. Sometimes they became listless and quiet and the echoes of machinery and the groans of twisted metal reverberated throughout the empty warehouse. It was not long though, before one of them would become excited and begin a more steady pace.

Isthi

Be. So it was, is and will become. That is what the first Noetic spoke from the sloping dunes of Malzahar. This Noetic, whose name has been lost to time, was the first and the last. Nothing more has come since, only the discovery of that first, primordial word. The idea that cannot be fully received nor understood. Isthi, from the hagiolect of the ancients. Only it's implications and manifestations may be studied, but it's heart remains ever the mystery. The mystery itself is where the that Noetic found peace and submission. Like the empty shelter created by a cave or a room, it was the mystery where the first Noetic found home and was then able to save the world.

When I Lived in...

When I lived in New York, I struggled through acting workshops and making enough to eat. When I lived in New York, I followed a dream of recognition and power. I tested my talents and desires. I fell in love over and over again and ignored my real dream of performance and magic in my life. When I lived in New York, I felt constant self-hatred and a eeking feeling of inadequacy. When I lived in New York, I became afraid of people but loved the city. I walked the bridges and neighborhoods of Manhattan and Brooklyn. I meditated on park benches and large boulders of central park. I braved the wind and snow for Chinese at one o'clock in the morning. I fantasized and fraternized with hipsters and bums. I made up new dreams that I didn't follow and found myself working in an insurance office on 64th street. When I lived in New York, I discovered what I would discover no matter where I had or would have lived. I discovered that it was what I allowed to happen inside that forged the doings and happenings of my life. I discovered fear.

New York...New Mexico